Cigarettes and ramen and a little bag of dope
I am the son of a bitch and Edgar Allen Poe
Raised in the city under a halo of lights
The product of war and fear that we've been victimized



In this world of snow and cold I'll hide
in this world of ice I've built with pride
of all things that I'd most like to receive
there's just one thing I really want this Christmas Eve
I believe, I believe it's you

I know youre out there waiting in the cold
all shimmering and blue and warm to hold
but if I try and really do believe
I'll get just what I'm waiting for this Christmas Eve
I believe, I believe it's you

Nothing can compare
nothing can come close to you
nothing can compare
nothing else will ever do

buried in the snow I'll wait for you
and keep on wishing 'till my dreams come true
I feel your touch, it melts the world away
and we'll be together in the light of Christmas Day
far away, far away with you.

Oh the witching time,
like a blackened pearl.
Oh how useless seem
the offers of this world.
A shroud is wrapped and bound,
to Gallows led away
though innocence is mine.
The dog will have his day.

All the Love turned to Hate,
the blade is in too deep and your repentance comes too late.

Oh wits misery,
the madness of your stay.
The best revenge,
a price which you must pay.

The children hide behind,
behind their little masks.
They are, at their games,
the only ones who laugh.

All the Love turned to Hate,
the blade is in too deep and your repentance comes too late.

So did I deserve,
your lies and treachery.
The curtain closes now.
The bell, it tolls for thee.

All your lies, all your shame.
And it drives you even madder that you've got yourself to blame.


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Step into this picture
release all your light
I think God has gone mad... here tonight

You can't believe your eyes,
control is so hard to keep
obsession can be hell
from which you'll never be free
It's all for the taking, here tonight

Where good girls go to die
that's where I'll be
Waiting for my love with my heart on my sleeve

Forget about the future
forget about the past.
My heart beats so,
my hands are cold
please God make this moment last

You seek to fill me
with virtues I lack
I'll turn your pure white wings to pure black.

You've pushed too far and now
you've lost control can't you see?
You thought you were the master
but you're down on your knees.
It's all for the taking, here tonight

Where good girls go to die
that's where I'll be,
remembering our love as if it were a disease.

Forget about the future
it wasn't meant to last
My heart beats slow my hands are cold
Oh God it's the end at last.



For whom the gun tolls
For whom the prey weeps
Bow before a war
Call it religion

Some wounds never heal
Some tears never will
Dry for the unkind
Cry for mankind

Even the dead cry
- Their only comfort
Kill your friend, I don't care
Orchid kids, blinded stare

Need to understand
No need to forgive
No truth no sense left to be followed

"Facing this unbearable fear like meeting an old friend"
"Time to die, poor mates, You made me what I am!"

"In this world of a million religions everyone prays the same way"

"Your praying is in vain It'll all be over soon"
"Father help me, save me a place by your side!"
"There is no god Our creed is but for ourselves"

"Not a hero unless you die Our species eat the wounded ones"

"Drunk with the blood of your victims
I do feel your pity-wanting pain,
Lust for fame, a deadly game"

"Run away with your impeccable kin!"

"- Good wombs hath borne bad sons..."
- Cursing, God, why?
Falling for every lie
Survivors' guilt
In us forevermore

15 candles
Redeemers of this world
Dwell in hypocrisy:
"How were we supposed to know"

4 pink ones
9 blue ones
2 black ones

[In memory of the Redeemers 20.4.1999]


Sleep Eden sleep
My fallen son
Slumber in peace

Cease the pain
Life's just in vain
For us to gain
Nothing but all the same

No healing hand
For your disease
Drinking scorn like water
Cascading with my tears

Beneath the candle bed
Two saddened angels-in heaven, in death

Now let us lie
Sad we lived sad we die
Even in your pride
I never blamed you

A mother's love
Is a sacrifice
Together sleeping
Keeping it all

No sympathy
No eternity
One light for each undeserved tear

Beneath the candle bed
Two souls with everything yet to be said

on the edge of the world where the neon screams
diet-coke religions shotdown tv-screens
american boy loves american girl
most beautiful people in the shattered world
i do believe in all-american dream
i do believe in all-american dream
on the edge of the world where the freon streams
snortin' up white mountains
in the pools of white limousines
millenium boy millenium girl
most beautiful people in this shattered world
i do believe in all-american dream
i do believe in all-american dream
in god we trust
in cars we rust
an i do believe in all-american dream

You can see her
Whenever it rains
From Rome to New Orleans
Dancing on the graves
Burden by the heart
She loves her sunglasses after dark
And every single day her little life falls apart

She's out to look so macabre and alone
She's close to hook on her dying

Just like a gothic girl
Lost in the darken world
My lil' gothic girl
Darkerside of jewel are your razorcuts for real, baby

You can see
She's on her road to ruin
Stigmata from crucifiction
On her pale white skin
Tribal pagan art
She loves her tattooed Egyptian mark
And every single day her love will tear us apart

She's out to look so macabre and alone
She's close to hook on her dying

Just like a gothic girl
Lost in the darken world
My lil' gothic girl
Always so dramatic, Christ, I want you, gothic girl
Lost in the darken world
My lil' gothic girl
Darkerside of jewel are your razorcuts for real, baby


I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along